Have you ever had a night without sleep?

I realize the first mistake may have been the chai tea latte I had a 6pm. I also blame my age. Aside from that my sleepless nights are becoming more and more frequent. But it could be that I have a million things on my mind that I can not seem to put to rest. I’ve been told, by my husband, to keep my phone at a distance. But that’s impossible. How else am I to jot down the next paragraph in “Online or Off?” Pen and paper, you say. Um, no. Plus, Hoda & KLG, well now Jenna, on the 4th hour of the Today Show put me into a light snooze nearly every night. I have a TV, but for some reason the past couple of years I tend to watch shows on my phone. Mistake number two, I’m guessing.


I doze off around 9:30 pm and then by 11 pm I am up. One of my 2020 goals is to drink 64 oz of water a day. Hence I’m up at 11, and again at midnight. And then I’m officially awake. My mind replays what happened at work the previous day. “Stop thinking about work,” I whisper to myself. On to thoughts of family. “I can’t believe my son won the half-court basketball contest!” Thought interrupted by the loud TV from downstairs. My husband is fast asleep on the couch with the television blaring. I’m awake, yet I’m too lazy and cold to go downstairs and wake him up. I decide to leave him sleeping on the couch. I get on my phone and turn on Pandora. Hoping the slow music will put me into a dream state. But it doesn’t. In fact, the song takes me back to my childhood. Funny how music can transport you.

Music reminds me of my time spent in dance studios as a kid

Tossing and turning. Eyes shut. Eyes open. Five blades on the fan. I probably need to dust the fan. Which reminds me I need to go to the grocery store. Make a list in my head. Turn off Pandora. Add the list to my phone. It’s now 2:30 am and I’m calculating how late I can sleep in or am I going to the gym before work. Work. I am now reminded that I’ve signed up for an online class to learn Adobe Illustrator. When I am going to find time to do that?

So my agenda begins: I need to continue writing the second book, update my resume for the umpteenth time, browse Linkedin for jobs, send emails to book stores and boutiques for events, check the Amazon campaign, plan the trip to Oklahoma for the February book signing and plan the trip to LA for agent meetings. Work on homework with my son. Take him to his favorite store and get him a haircut. Haircut? I need a haircut. And color. What day am I off next? Work. Ugh work. Did I finish that conversation about summer vacation with the hubs? Wait, did I start the conversation? Conversation. That reminds me I have practice Spanish. Another 2020 goal. It’s an app called DuoLingo and I love it. It’s now 3:45 am and I’m obsessing about learning a second language. Then my mom pops into my head. She has a new business venture that I’m helping her with. I designed her business cards. Did they arrive? Need to call her. But then I remember I was supposed to research something for her. Sit up, get on my phone and begin to research. Finally, 5am rolls around and my eyes are heavy. My brain is full. My body is exhausted. I snuggle down into the covers, fluffing my pillow just right and drift off. For an hour. My son, the human alarm clock, shakes me at 6:30 on the dot. “Mom, get up, it's time to work out.”

So as I'm posting this I get an Apple News update. You will never guess the article from TIME magazine...


So if you can't sleep either do not worry you are not alone. What are some ideas for getting a good night's sleep? I have tried melatonin and it does work! And of course reading a good book helps take your mind off of stress. May I suggest PERSONAL APPEARANCES ARE EVERYTHING for your next nightly read!

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